That feeling of Gratitude...

I can't explain it, I have tried but I can't! What I have been able to do though... is feel it and understand it! This might be a hard pill to swallow for some but I will see if I can explain it just so I can make some sense of it.

Someone told me that I should feel grateful for the things I have but I didn't know how to do that. I thought I did and I began writing down the things I'm grateful for. I was able to list things, write of few paragraphs of why I thought they made me grateful but when I think back to writing these out, I couldn't feel it for some reason... I don't think I realised at the time but I couldn't feel it. I used to write that I was grateful for my car, I was grateful for family and friends, grateful for waking up this morning. I was grateful for all these things and it was easy for me to write them down but the trick was to do it every day or every other day, but when that time came... I felt like I was about to write the same things again but nothing had changed... well maybe it did but I just couldn't see it (or feel it). I felt like I was taking those things for granted! Now though!! Ah mate... The feeling I have of gratitude is immense... It's bursting at the seams, It's within me every single day when I go through and handle the things I'm grateful for... and it seems like it's just bringing in more blessings, more gratitude and more times for me to be thankful for all of this. I try to reach out to the Lord every day to say thank you... (some nights I do forget, but he knows I'm honest lol) but when I do... I mention the things I'm grateful for and it's ok to repeat them over and over again. I was thinking about listing the things that I am showing gratitude for but I've decided against it, if you would like to know more about them (and you don't know already) then feel free to reach out to me after reading this. You might think that these things are small, materialistic and they may not matter to some... but that's not the point, the point is... what I did to get them, the things I went to through to get to this point, the countless amounts of disappointment that I felt throughout the years... Ahhhh, that is probably why the feeling of gratitude is so strong! I remember what I went through to get to where I am now. Take this as a message, use me as living proof... we may not have gone through the same struggles, but they were still struggles and that's what matters... it's not about measuring the levels of what it was we went through, but just know that we are all going through them and when you get through to the end, ON TOP!!... that's when you know you've made it and as mad as it sounds, the struggle will seem like it was worth it... because we had to go through them to get to where we are!! Life is never easy, we know this already! But here we are!