Rock and a hard place...

That's how I feel but take away the part where it means you 'have' to choose! I don't have much of a choice because one of them is definitely not an option, so I have to go with the other... what am I on about? I'm talking about being in a place of a work that you don't really want to be... Oh, a little disclaimer... I mentioned in my last post that I hated my job; truth is... I don't 'hate' it as such... I just really really really dislike being there, but I'll come back to that in a min.

So back to this rock thing... I'm stuck, for some strange reason I do not quite having enough experience to get another role in a different industry but doing the same sort of work. I.T. is weird sometimes, the recruitment side of it is weird, the responses I get from some of my rejection’s emails are weird... lol they’re weird because it seems like they use the same template to reject you. I was going to look for some examples to show you, but I can't be bothered, but basically, they say that I did not make it to the next stage, they went with other candidates who are more experience then they say that they will keep my application on file and will let me know if another position opens up... No you're not! I've been applying for jobs for most of my career (I used to do contract work so I was always applying for roles) and they rarely call me back to tell me that there is another position coming up and they welcome me to apply... why? so you can reject me again??? What I'm saying is... if you're in a situation where you are trying to move forward with something... a new job and a business venture or if you're just making those steps to move forward in life... don't give up, it can be hard... tough even! but that is better than not going for it at all.

I have no choice but to go through the tough struggles of job searching but if I don't do it... then how will I proceed further in my career... my current place clearly doesn't have give the support and encouragement that I need so I'll have to find it myself. This week has been a long week and that is because I am starting to get bored with what I do... it's strange because I absolutely love working in IT and love going to work and being busy, give me two additional laptops to work on along with tickets and responding to emails, working on issues and that will have to challenging myself working on a resolution is fulfilling. As crazy and that may sound, I look for this when I go to work... some of you may be thinking "I would like to go to work and not have anything to do" and that's fine, but I'm not built like that... I need to be kept busy! I had a chat with some managers, and I think they're going to see what they can do to keep me busy whilst there... in the meantime I will continue to study for my IT certs, job search every few days to keep myself relevant in the job market, and hope that something comes my way soon. My reasons for not liking my job are due to several reasons, I started there almost a year ago with the view of getting stuck in with some good technology, being exposed to new things and learning some new skills along the way. I thought that I would be there for the long haul to build up my experience but instead I was met with boredom on most days, tiredness every single day due to the times I wake up and when I get back into my house in the evenings and just not feeling comfortable in that environment... to be honest, it has affected my mental health and I never thought I would speak on it but I think I had to recognise what was going on with me and how to sort myself out... big up to those who supported me through that period. I'm better now but still have those days that get to me but I do what I can get out of it too. It's a dream job of mine to work for one of the big tech companies like Microsoft, Google or Amazon... I've had a glimpse of what the environment is like and I want to be a part of it. They say "Dream big" and I believe in that, why shouldn't you? Other's have and it's worked for them so why not work for you. I'm striving for greatness!! GJ signing out!